Into the big wide world!

The Door slammed shut and off we went....mission...cash, ciggies each and a meal together..so off we clipped. Vicky had been poorly and not been in heels for and qas determined not to be outdone.
Me - nervous - not done this since I was 25 except to TV clubs. hadnt shaved since lunch....eyes smudged....

You see, first half hour is the worst. Sometimes an older bloke 'clocks' you and maybe sniggers - young girls the nastiest. But as you keep walking and guys look at your legs.....then boobs then face...by then you have clipped past.
Girls look at your shoes a LOT. And your clothes...what tights you have on and they normally do see you are a tranny. Most people ignore you....and after half an hour - you ignore them.
Almost all neuroses us TVs have is internal fears and guilt.

Cashpoint - high street....young lads. They just stare at my legs. Corner shop. Ciggies.
Old guy ignores us and serves us Marlborough lights.

Restaurant...busy group - andtwo gorgeously dressed trendy girls nattering in the corner.

Heart pounding....cant make eye contact. Not been this nervous dressed since I started!

Table ladies?
Vicky said yes and off we went..two glasses of wine and menus.

Babe - you re fine, you look great..stop panicking...here's my compact - gotta use the ladies!

Well that lightened the mood!

We ate and talked shoes and clothes and my girly side over dinner - nicely ignored...bill...and off home - 20 mins in heels now killing me.

'You feel good?
'Hm...let you know at home!
'Well - you look like a girl to me! - next time lets do it on a Friday - meet my sis and my other half and have a whole other person for the night. Sis wont recognise you!

I really like that - first time I went all out aged 25 and a youthful size 10 - met Evelyn at Warren street tube and said Hi, got a light.....and hello again she didn't recognise me at all...Reesult!

Safe indoors.

Well done babe! Enjoy it?!
Scary....but exhilarating too...so liberating!
She laughed...well you have spent the money - may as well wear it!
'Babe - you know how when I came out to you, I said I wanted it out of my system...and you thought It would either put me off or I would get a taste for it...?
She smiled....yeah she said.

Bloody hell......I love it. Never want to take them off.
Well you can be as much of it as you want with me - safe here!

I know - and I hate imposing - but thanks for the encouragement! Daytime next!

These babes are next!